I was suppose to go for a car wash in the Air Force Base and to run some errands, but when I was about to step out of my bedroom, to put on my shoes, I saw a MSN message.
playing soccer?
It's been so long since I last put on my soccer boots, so I guess might as well. That's how I ended up in the field with the rest of the guys. It's fated... It is an extremely windy day. The soccer game was tough as we were playing against the wind. No matter how much force you exerts from your foot to the point of contact on the soccer ball, you can't get it going the way you wanted it to. I wasn't much into the game as I feel that I am not a part of their team. Yes, teamwork is required but it only happens among themselves. All along I have felt this way. I am not a team player (used to be one), I can make things happen better alone. I always walk alone...
Before I came to the states, I never ever really played a proper soccer game with a pair of soccer boots before. It was those guys that bought me this pair of boots as my birthday present, June 2006. I was really happy as I felt welcomed then. Soon after that I got myself a proper attire or rather a few attires for the soccer game every Sunday. Thanks guys for the present. I really appreciates it. It will be a remembrance...
Anyway I am grateful to Anson because if I were to get a car wash, I am gonna get hit by the sand storm after the wash and that equals a waste of effort. After that soccer game, I also have made up my mind to hang up my boots. I was redundant to the game anyway. Seems like everybody wants to be a striker, how to play well as a team if everybody wants to score? Nobody is backing up the goal keeper and that really makes me pissed. To make matter worst, there is this guy from the recent rotation that acts like 'Alex Fugerson' in the field. Duh.
Lots of things happened. I gain lots of experiences from it. Life is balance. Almost like the Newton's 3rd law: "To every action force there is an equal, but opposite, reaction force" To simplify, it's "You gain some, you will lose some, vice versa."
I used to be among the guys, until the day I received recognition, given opportunities & ranked higher than those that were here in the states much longer than me. Things weren't so bad then. Until CSC told me and another guy about the path that had been laid in front of both of us and reminded us this is only let known to both of us so as to boost our Morales and to keep up the good work. To keep it down as he didn't want to stir up conflicts among us, our flight. I kept his words until now, but that KLK had immediately spread the news to BCI & every single DCC as we stepped out from the conference room. Then onwards, things started to differentiate. They see it as I outran them. I am an eye sore that caused them to have "red eyes". I was casted away. It's so obvious, that even other trades can see it. It has been going on since August 2006, and it is still going on for many rotations of guys because their batch are overwhelming...
Thanks to KLK, this has forced me to put in more efforts to my work in order to "cast" further away from them even more. Thanks...
Whatever...
New Captain is on board. New directions are set. Just waiting for my time comes to dock back SG. I am eager. But still, I am sailing along with the wind now, as those 'sailor' who chooses to sail against it will usually ends up in the bottom of the ocean...
Music: Ventura - Electrified
Kent ZZ