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Friday, April 25, 2008 - She is gone... Only managed to catch her once.

When I am all alone, I tends to think to myself a lot. Looking at people from all walks of life, observing their behaviours and analysing them (also looking out for fashion senses). I have not much people that I can talk to, as I only have 1 real friend. People coming in and out of my life are all colleagues and acquaintances. I can be at some places where I am being greeted by many or greeting many, but they only play a small part of my life when I am in different venues and occasions.

What is the purpose of life? Have any of you ever think about it...?

Everything is so routine... People goes to school, goes to work then back home and pay their bills. Get married, have kids, grow old and die... I guess most people are trying their best to earn more money. It's a material world. Other than all these material stuffs, does anybody out there really think about what is their aim in life? Everybody comes into this world with a purpose. What's yours? I have no idea about mine..

I see happy people, photos and pictures. I envy the joy they have among their friends. I have lost it long ago. Why do I feel so alone? I am lacking of something. I don't feel complete. I don't want to be a normal being. I don't want to be typical.

I have seen too much and done so much, yet somebody asked me that day why am I so pessimistic? (Because I was condemning so much about the people around me) When I heard that I was like, huh? Haha. I am way too optimistic to be labelled that way. If I am that narrow minded, I would have ended my life long ago when I was in the lowest point of my life. Typical Singaporeans are so much like a "frog in a well". As they only see that small circle of sky when they look up of the well, whereas the sky is actually so much bigger then they could have imagine. I really pity the people of the society now. You can't really blame them as that is the way they are being brought up. Unless they choose to think otherwise and don't end up following the path into the typical group of people...

all gone, just like that... 2:31 PM